So, since the accident, I have not been able to workout. And, apparently, I can only handle one thing at a time, because with all the running around to doctors, etc, I have not done one food log. I am trying to keep eating similar to before, but know I am not staying under 1800 calories. However, in the last two weeks I did lose a pound. That is pretty good for not working out (and not drinking water like I should).
Of course the baby has picked this time to start standing and crawling....but it is adorable! :) The kids are all keeping me busy. I am trying not to lift or overdo things - which is pretty hard with the life I have been living. Just because I am injured in the accident doesn't mean all these things don't need to get done! Totally slacked off on housework (something I couldn't afford to do with the shape of the house before!). Also, due to the drowsiness from pain meds, I have slept or laid down when tired rather than continuing to go go go. And, I have found I eat less when I do that. I know that I eat when I am tired & run-down. Quick energy foods (carbs, sugar, etc). But, if I just rest (like my body is telling me to) then I don't eat as much....though that is often easier said than done!
My car is STILL not fixed. Dealing with insurance companies, attorneys, and all sorts of crap. I am starting to get over the resentment of the accident and getting to a place of acceptance. I am in pain less with treatment, but still in pain. Have a great chiropractor and massage therapist. My husband has been great & does all he can, but he also works about 60 hours a week and isn't home a lot (though he did take a week off work right afterward to help me and drive me around).
So, I need to start posting here more, again. I got my laptop back online and have it set up in the living room....so I have no excuse now!!
Best,
Two
Friday, February 19, 2010
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Day 31...still here
I am still here, I am just not posting every day. Still trying to recover. I think I am eating pretty well, but could be better. I am not logging food every day, which makes me nervous, but it is something I just can't do right now. Hitting the chiropractor & massage therapist (not as fun as it sounds) three times a week. Finally driving again. Hope to be getting better soon, though I have been warned it can take some time.
Best,
Two
Best,
Two
Sunday, February 7, 2010
day 28 - Time to start blogging again!!
My day (Sunday 2/7/10) -
OK, time for me to sit and try to write some. I still have lots of pain & stiffness. It is going to be a long road to recovery. However, I need to get blogging again!
I wanna new bar....
Ok, I have been looking for a decent bar that isn't too high in calories, but will also fill me up at the 10:00 snack time. So, I found something that I used to eat a lot in college: Heart
Thrive bars. They are SUPER healthy and only 161 calories a serving, over 6 grams of protein, 257 mg of calcium, whole grain, nonGMO, vegan, and they are wheat & dairy free.
Apricot is my favorite but there area lots of flavors. You thought be able to find them at a health food store near you.
Other than that, I have been surviving. Being in constant pain for 5 days is something I am sort of used to with fibromyalgia. But this back/neck pain is quite icky! Dealing with the insurance companies, trying to get my car fixed, not run out of pain pills, going to Dr after Dr, and still trying to keep my life going....well, that is a challenge to say the least!
Ultimate goal: HALF MY SIZE BY Sept 2012
Working goal: to fit back into those size 18 pants by May 1
**NEW** Mini Goal: STAY OFF THE SCALE UNTIL WEIGH-IN DAY!
Mini Goal: take my thyroid meds more regularly!
Food:
-bowl of HN cheerios cereal & milk (275)
-heart thrive bar (161)
-lean cuisine (330)
-RK treat (90)
-bar (100)
-crackers, LC cheese, tomato (105)
-Full bites (150)
-big salad with light dressing & almonds (180)
-LC meal (330)
-skinny cow ice cream (150)
total diet cokes today: 4!
Calories:...1871
700 calorie deficit: 1879 (means "goal" ~10 months sooner!)
workout:
None until OK'ed by Dr :-(
Water:
not much. Ok, I justify this by saying it is hard for me to move, so getting up every 10 minutes to pee is not acceptable. Can you buy that one?
Confession of the day: (good for the soul, no?)
I have had my share of health problems, but damn! I really should have appreciated the ability to do things for myself, drive myself, pick things up, etc etc when I could. I feel so helpless now. The pain really sucks too.
Until tomorrow,
Two
OK, time for me to sit and try to write some. I still have lots of pain & stiffness. It is going to be a long road to recovery. However, I need to get blogging again!
I wanna new bar....
Ok, I have been looking for a decent bar that isn't too high in calories, but will also fill me up at the 10:00 snack time. So, I found something that I used to eat a lot in college: Heart
Thrive bars. They are SUPER healthy and only 161 calories a serving, over 6 grams of protein, 257 mg of calcium, whole grain, nonGMO, vegan, and they are wheat & dairy free.INGREDIENTS
OATS, UNSULFURED APRICOTS, BROWN RICE SYRUP, BROWN RICE FLOUR, SOY PROTEIN CONCENTRATE, SOY FLOUR, INULIN (CHICORY ROOT EXTRACT), RICE BRAN, NATURAL FRUIT JUICE, DRIED PLUMS, DRIED APPLES, DRIED PEARS, ORANGE PEEL, CALCIUM CITRATE, ALMOND EXTRACT.
Apricot is my favorite but there area lots of flavors. You thought be able to find them at a health food store near you.Other than that, I have been surviving. Being in constant pain for 5 days is something I am sort of used to with fibromyalgia. But this back/neck pain is quite icky! Dealing with the insurance companies, trying to get my car fixed, not run out of pain pills, going to Dr after Dr, and still trying to keep my life going....well, that is a challenge to say the least!
Ultimate goal: HALF MY SIZE BY Sept 2012
Working goal: to fit back into those size 18 pants by May 1
**NEW** Mini Goal: STAY OFF THE SCALE UNTIL WEIGH-IN DAY!
Mini Goal: take my thyroid meds more regularly!
Food:
-bowl of HN cheerios cereal & milk (275)
-heart thrive bar (161)
-lean cuisine (330)
-RK treat (90)
-bar (100)
-crackers, LC cheese, tomato (105)
-Full bites (150)
-big salad with light dressing & almonds (180)
-LC meal (330)
-skinny cow ice cream (150)
total diet cokes today: 4!
Calories:...1871
Daily Calorie Requirements: 2,579
500 calorie deficit: 2079700 calorie deficit: 1879 (means "goal" ~10 months sooner!)
workout:
None until OK'ed by Dr :-(
Water:
not much. Ok, I justify this by saying it is hard for me to move, so getting up every 10 minutes to pee is not acceptable. Can you buy that one?
Confession of the day: (good for the soul, no?)
I have had my share of health problems, but damn! I really should have appreciated the ability to do things for myself, drive myself, pick things up, etc etc when I could. I feel so helpless now. The pain really sucks too.
Until tomorrow,
Two
Saturday, February 6, 2010
day 27
I haven't posted anything in the past couple days. I am resting & recuperating. My back was really messed up in the accident. Luckily, I found a good chiropractor. They also think I had a mild concussion (brain slosh!) when my head was whipping around. So, between all that and the pain pills, I have been pretty out of it. Eating is not perfect, but not bad. No binges.
It was my daughters 16th Bday the other day & we had cake (I only have ONE slice!). She was supposed to take the cake with her when she went to her friends this weekend, but she did not. Well, I started to look at it longingly....finally I just sealed it up and through it in the freezer & buried it! I was proud of myself. White cake is my weakness!
Can't sit & type too long, but I will try to make sure and post something each day.
Best,
Two
It was my daughters 16th Bday the other day & we had cake (I only have ONE slice!). She was supposed to take the cake with her when she went to her friends this weekend, but she did not. Well, I started to look at it longingly....finally I just sealed it up and through it in the freezer & buried it! I was proud of myself. White cake is my weakness!
Can't sit & type too long, but I will try to make sure and post something each day.
Best,
Two
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Day 24 - PAIN!
My day (Wednesday 2/3/10) -
Man, thank goodness for pain pills & heating pads! I wish I had some muscle relaxers. I see the Chiropractor tomorrow, so maybe that will help (or he will give me better meds!). Saw the attorney today, things are moving forward. not going to write much today. It hurts to sit @ the computer :-(
Ultimate goal: HALF MY SIZE BY Sept 2012
Working goal: to fit back into those size 18 pants by May 1
**NEW** Mini Goal: STAY OFF THE SCALE UNTIL WEIGH-IN DAY!
Mini Goal: take my thyroid meds more regularly!
Food:
-bowl of HN cheerios cereal & milk (275)
-Luna Cookie (130)
-Sandwich (250)
-RK treat (90)
Spec K bars (100)
-crackers, LC cheese, tomato (105)
-Full bites (150)
-big salad with light dressing & almonds (180)
-LC meal (330)
-skinny cow ice cream (150)
total diet cokes today: 3
Calories:...1760
700 calorie deficit: 1879 (means "goal" ~10 months sooner!)
workout:
none, per Drs orders
Water:
30oz
Confession of the day: (good for the soul, no?)
none.
Until tomorrow,
Two
Man, thank goodness for pain pills & heating pads! I wish I had some muscle relaxers. I see the Chiropractor tomorrow, so maybe that will help (or he will give me better meds!). Saw the attorney today, things are moving forward. not going to write much today. It hurts to sit @ the computer :-(
Ultimate goal: HALF MY SIZE BY Sept 2012
Working goal: to fit back into those size 18 pants by May 1
**NEW** Mini Goal: STAY OFF THE SCALE UNTIL WEIGH-IN DAY!
Mini Goal: take my thyroid meds more regularly!
Food:
-bowl of HN cheerios cereal & milk (275)
-Luna Cookie (130)
-Sandwich (250)
-RK treat (90)
Spec K bars (100)
-crackers, LC cheese, tomato (105)
-Full bites (150)
-big salad with light dressing & almonds (180)
-LC meal (330)
-skinny cow ice cream (150)
total diet cokes today: 3
Calories:...1760
Daily Calorie Requirements: 2,579
500 calorie deficit: 2079700 calorie deficit: 1879 (means "goal" ~10 months sooner!)
workout:
none, per Drs orders
Water:
30oz
Confession of the day: (good for the soul, no?)
none.
Until tomorrow,
Two
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Day 23 - life can change in an instant!
My day (Tuesday 2/2/10) -
Wow, things can change in an instant. This is a short post tonight since I am all doped up on vicodan and a little loopy. Today, as I was picking up the kids from school, I was stopped to turn into a parking space when someone rear-ended me going about 35mph. A teenager. The front end of her car was mostly totaled. My car, the wonderful Subaru, just got a wonky bumper. But I got whiplash. Holy cow! Spent the rest of the afternoon in urgent care with Xrays and such. Trying to figure out what to do next.
This has changed my whole week. Most appointments are canceled now, my husband took the rest of the week off (because I am not supposed to lift over 5#). I can't workout. And, apparently, I will be even more sore tomorrow than I am tonight! Oh Boy!
However, as good of an excuse as it was to just go get drive thru fast food for dinner, I did not. I ate my lean cuisine. I didnt have a salad like I normally do and had a couple more 100 calories bars than I should have, but heck, I think I did pretty well. I am still right around where I should be for calories.
Hopefully, I will be up to writing more tomorrow. But, I wanted to write and say that I will NOT use this as an excuse to overeat, go off my eating plan, etc.
Ultimate goal: HALF MY SIZE BY Sept 2012
Working goal: to fit back into those size 18 pants by May 1
**NEW** Mini Goal: STAY OFF THE SCALE UNTIL WEIGH-IN DAY!
Mini Goal: take my thyroid meds more regularly!
Food:
-no food journal today. But about right on with calories.
total diet cokes today: 2
Calories:...
700 calorie deficit: 1879 (means "goal" ~10 months sooner!)
workout:
lots of walking in the AM
Water:
20oz
Confession of the day: (good for the soul, no?)
none.
Until tomorrow,
Two
Wow, things can change in an instant. This is a short post tonight since I am all doped up on vicodan and a little loopy. Today, as I was picking up the kids from school, I was stopped to turn into a parking space when someone rear-ended me going about 35mph. A teenager. The front end of her car was mostly totaled. My car, the wonderful Subaru, just got a wonky bumper. But I got whiplash. Holy cow! Spent the rest of the afternoon in urgent care with Xrays and such. Trying to figure out what to do next.
This has changed my whole week. Most appointments are canceled now, my husband took the rest of the week off (because I am not supposed to lift over 5#). I can't workout. And, apparently, I will be even more sore tomorrow than I am tonight! Oh Boy!
However, as good of an excuse as it was to just go get drive thru fast food for dinner, I did not. I ate my lean cuisine. I didnt have a salad like I normally do and had a couple more 100 calories bars than I should have, but heck, I think I did pretty well. I am still right around where I should be for calories.
Hopefully, I will be up to writing more tomorrow. But, I wanted to write and say that I will NOT use this as an excuse to overeat, go off my eating plan, etc.
Ultimate goal: HALF MY SIZE BY Sept 2012
Working goal: to fit back into those size 18 pants by May 1
**NEW** Mini Goal: STAY OFF THE SCALE UNTIL WEIGH-IN DAY!
Mini Goal: take my thyroid meds more regularly!
Food:
-no food journal today. But about right on with calories.
total diet cokes today: 2
Calories:...
Daily Calorie Requirements: 2,579
500 calorie deficit: 2079700 calorie deficit: 1879 (means "goal" ~10 months sooner!)
workout:
lots of walking in the AM
Water:
20oz
Confession of the day: (good for the soul, no?)
none.
Until tomorrow,
Two
Monday, February 1, 2010
Day 22- stress eating & preparing for the week to come
My day (Monday 2/1/10) -
Have a very stressful week coming up. I am trying to steel myself for it. Today is a no-school day for our district, so I have all the kids home again. Tomorrow, I have lots of errands to run & it is my only day to do it. Then, Wednesday my son goes up to Shriners Hospital to see if he needs to schedule surgery again (will be his seventh, he is 6 years old). Then, on Thursday, my husband has surgery. It is a pretty minor thing but because they have to cut through a large muscle to get where they are going, he has to go to the hospital to do it. He will then be off for the rest of the week & the following week. ugh
Friday is traveling again, as usual, down south for a visit. Tonight is a visit too but here in town. My granddaughter is in our care as a foster child as my oldest daughter (20) is very mentally ill. I am getting nervous as the date for the permanency hearing is fast approaching. I am so unsure of what the state will do with our granddaughter (give her to her mother - they removed her at birth, so she has never really"had" her to raise yet) or leave her with us so that we may adopt her (we have had her since she was a week old, she is now almost 8 mos). Another reason I am trying to lose some serious weight so I don't look like an elephant in a suit next time we go to court.
My teenage daughter is getting ready to finish her GED next week, start work, and go to community college (she is 16, but skipping high school...I can't really explain why, because I don't know, but she is being responsible about it). So, this week she is out looking for jobs. I hope it isn't as bad out there as I hear!
So, for a stress-eater like me, this is a serious test of my eating plan!!! Lots of being out of my comfort zone (and it is funny that Tyler wrote about this just today in his blog), away from home, traveling, health issues with family members, etc etc etc. I am going to have to redouble my efforts to stay on track this week.
Ultimate goal: HALF MY SIZE BY Sept 2012
Working goal: to fit back into those size 18 pants by May 1
**NEW** Mini Goal: STAY OFF THE SCALE UNTIL WEIGH-IN DAY!
Mini Goal: take my thyroid meds more regularly!
Food:
-bowl of HN cheerios cereal & milk (275)
-Luna "Cookie" (130)
-sandwich (300) -W bread, LC cheese, ham, tomato
-FF tapioca pudding (80)
-RK treat (90)
-crackers, LC cheese, tomato (210)
-orange (86)
-Full bites (150)
-big salad with light dressing & almonds (180)
-LC meal (220)
-skinny cow ice cream (150)
total diet cokes today: 2
Calories:...1871
700 calorie deficit: 1879 (means "goal" ~10 months sooner!)
workout:
Well, I think I have recovered from my "work outs" this last week. It is funny, there is this post exertion fatigue (and pain!) with fibromyalgia that is kind of a self-perpetuating cycle. You don't do too much because you feel exhausted for days after, but you don't do much, so you are tired & out of shape. It is a tough cycle to break out of. You have to know just how much you can do without pushing yourself too far. I certainly cannot work out like a lot of people I read about...what is this SHRED stuff anyway??! That would put me down for a month!
However, now that I am feeling better, I have gotten a lot of work done that has been neglected in the past several days. Lots of cleaning, paperwork, work-work, etc. I know I must have burned SOME calories with that. And, I guess burning calories getting something constructive done is better than just cruisin' on the elliptic machine. I think that I will try to go for more walks. That does not tire me out as much.
Water:
50 oz
Confession of the day: (good for the soul, no?)
When I got up this morning at 4:30 with the baby, I think I ended up eating a rice krispie treat (that is not logged with yesterdays food). I dont really remember too well. But I know I ate something. But, so far, no bowls of kiddie cereal in the middle of the night for weeks now. That is amazing!
Until tomorrow,
Two
Have a very stressful week coming up. I am trying to steel myself for it. Today is a no-school day for our district, so I have all the kids home again. Tomorrow, I have lots of errands to run & it is my only day to do it. Then, Wednesday my son goes up to Shriners Hospital to see if he needs to schedule surgery again (will be his seventh, he is 6 years old). Then, on Thursday, my husband has surgery. It is a pretty minor thing but because they have to cut through a large muscle to get where they are going, he has to go to the hospital to do it. He will then be off for the rest of the week & the following week. ugh
Friday is traveling again, as usual, down south for a visit. Tonight is a visit too but here in town. My granddaughter is in our care as a foster child as my oldest daughter (20) is very mentally ill. I am getting nervous as the date for the permanency hearing is fast approaching. I am so unsure of what the state will do with our granddaughter (give her to her mother - they removed her at birth, so she has never really"had" her to raise yet) or leave her with us so that we may adopt her (we have had her since she was a week old, she is now almost 8 mos). Another reason I am trying to lose some serious weight so I don't look like an elephant in a suit next time we go to court.
My teenage daughter is getting ready to finish her GED next week, start work, and go to community college (she is 16, but skipping high school...I can't really explain why, because I don't know, but she is being responsible about it). So, this week she is out looking for jobs. I hope it isn't as bad out there as I hear!
So, for a stress-eater like me, this is a serious test of my eating plan!!! Lots of being out of my comfort zone (and it is funny that Tyler wrote about this just today in his blog), away from home, traveling, health issues with family members, etc etc etc. I am going to have to redouble my efforts to stay on track this week.
Ultimate goal: HALF MY SIZE BY Sept 2012
Working goal: to fit back into those size 18 pants by May 1
**NEW** Mini Goal: STAY OFF THE SCALE UNTIL WEIGH-IN DAY!
Mini Goal: take my thyroid meds more regularly!
Food:
-bowl of HN cheerios cereal & milk (275)
-Luna "Cookie" (130)
-sandwich (300) -W bread, LC cheese, ham, tomato
-FF tapioca pudding (80)
-RK treat (90)
-crackers, LC cheese, tomato (210)
-orange (86)
-Full bites (150)
-big salad with light dressing & almonds (180)
-LC meal (220)
-skinny cow ice cream (150)
total diet cokes today: 2
Calories:...1871
Daily Calorie Requirements: 2,579
500 calorie deficit: 2079700 calorie deficit: 1879 (means "goal" ~10 months sooner!)
workout:
Well, I think I have recovered from my "work outs" this last week. It is funny, there is this post exertion fatigue (and pain!) with fibromyalgia that is kind of a self-perpetuating cycle. You don't do too much because you feel exhausted for days after, but you don't do much, so you are tired & out of shape. It is a tough cycle to break out of. You have to know just how much you can do without pushing yourself too far. I certainly cannot work out like a lot of people I read about...what is this SHRED stuff anyway??! That would put me down for a month!
However, now that I am feeling better, I have gotten a lot of work done that has been neglected in the past several days. Lots of cleaning, paperwork, work-work, etc. I know I must have burned SOME calories with that. And, I guess burning calories getting something constructive done is better than just cruisin' on the elliptic machine. I think that I will try to go for more walks. That does not tire me out as much.
Water:
50 oz
Confession of the day: (good for the soul, no?)
When I got up this morning at 4:30 with the baby, I think I ended up eating a rice krispie treat (that is not logged with yesterdays food). I dont really remember too well. But I know I ate something. But, so far, no bowls of kiddie cereal in the middle of the night for weeks now. That is amazing!
Until tomorrow,
Two
****WEIGH-IN WEEK THREE****
Starting weight: 260
last week: 253
today: 251 (originally I reported 252, but that was @ 4:30 this am - the baby woke up WAY early) Then, I went back to bed & woke up at the normal time & weighed myself again and it was 251....so I will take that, I think!)
Result: -2#
Total loss: -9#
Total to go: 121#
YAY!
last week: 253
today: 251 (originally I reported 252, but that was @ 4:30 this am - the baby woke up WAY early) Then, I went back to bed & woke up at the normal time & weighed myself again and it was 251....so I will take that, I think!)
Result: -2#
Total loss: -9#
Total to go: 121#
YAY!
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